This is right about the time the old Lainey would be feeling sorry for herself. But that doesn’t actually change anything about anything. It doesn’t fix the problem and it certainly doesn’t make you feel better. You know what does make you feel better? Being thankful for the things you do have. An awesome family (especially a sister who is so supportive of your goals and thinks you’re great and is there for you no matter what’s going on in her life), a great group of friends (who I probably don’t even really deserve cos they’re so kind and talented and lovely), a job that actually APPRECIATES MY HARD WORK! and THANKS ME FOR IT!, my health (as far as I know I’m mostly fine), dreams and goals so sincere and bold and achievable it’d make you puke, and an incredibly self-sufficient/smart/funny/kind/caring child.

I’m so lucky I’m me and I’m here to appreciate these things. I mean, what else is there???